Hehehehehehe…. I did something naughty…. hehehehehehe… and I feel a little guilty…. hehehehehe… and a little silly…. hehehehehe…. and a little regretful… but only a little…. hehehhehee.
It all started yesterday when I got the mail. Willow’s 18 month check up is next week… so we received a developmental questionnaire to fill out ahead of time. Grrrrr.
I totally understand the purpose of these questionnaires and I think they’re great at identifying areas that might need some attention… that is if your child doesn’t have special needs. When your child is not considered “typical”… these questionnaires provoke atypical responses (ie: eating an entire gallon of ice cream… crying enough tears to fill your empty ice cream container… dreaming about how to mail an ice cream container full of tears to your daughter’s pediatrician’s office.) Needless to say… I was a mixture of emotion yesterday. Then… I happened upon a post by blogger… Mary Evelyn from What Do You Do, Dear? The post was titled Laughing at the “nevers” (or that time I defaced my son’s developmental questionnaire). Oh. My. Goodness. God sure knew I needed to read that. I encourage you to read it… too. For me… it was therapeutic. Like God was saying “let go of the hurt… don’t let a packet of papers have power of you.” So… I did it. I let go of the anger and sadness… and replaced it with a pen.
Let me tell ya… it felt good to deface Willow’s developmental questionnaire. But… the guilt is starting to set in. Willow’s appointment is next Wednesday. I’m afraid I might chicken out in the end.. and just tell the nurse our dog ate the questionnaire. Who knows? Maybe I’ll feel bold that day! My older kids will be on spring break at the time. Having them home from school usually pushes me to the brink of insanity. So… what do you think? Do I dare?????